Wednesday, March 27, 2013

Cabin Fever

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We had to get some fresh air today. Our sweet girl needed to taste freedom. 
We've been stuck in the house, forcing her to "take it easy" so that she can get better, but her pent up energy is getting the best of her so we decided a little bike time was needed. 
Isn't she awesome? 

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Tuesday, March 26, 2013

Another ER Visit

Pin It Well last night was yet another ER trip for this Momma. Sofia came down with a runny nose Sunday and by yesterday she had a mild fever, was coughing now and then but acting normal.

Knox seemed fine all day yesterday, although I did pick up on a hint of congestion. When I went to bed at 930, he was making a lot of noise while breathing in his sleep, but nothing overly concerning. He woke me up at 11:30 and was wheezing and gasping for air. His entire chest was sucking in as he breathed. I tried clearing out his nose and sitting in a steamy bathroom, but neither did any good. I woke Wes up and Wes immediately wanted to take him to the ER so I headed out the door with Knox to the emergency room and Wes stayed home with Sofia, nervously awaiting my call.

Knox's oxygen level was in the 80's and nurses kept coming over to see where the loud wheezing sound was coming from. He was treated for croup, he was given 2 breathing treatments, a steroid shot and got chest x-rays before they'd release him. He sounded almost completely better on the way out, but still didn't sleep well and sounds pretty horse and gruff this morning. He seems to be breathing fine though. As you know, croup is a virus so we'll have to wait for him to kick this cold before he'll fully be better.

On a couple of high notes, I handled my second solo trip to the ER just fine, no tears. In fact, I felt strangely comfortable at the hospital, I guess all of my hospital/doctor time in the last 4 months has tempered me. I felt grateful to not have the overwhelming anxiety I had back in January. I also got about a million compliments on my cute, chubby (17 lb) baby boy so that didn't hurt!

Prayers for a healthy recovery, for no return ER trips and for energy and health for Mom. I'm exhausted.

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Sunday, March 24, 2013

We've Got Ears

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I love crafting and what better excuse do I have then a 2 year olds birthday party?
Did you know that Mickey ears cost $6 a pop? Crazy right? So what do you do when you just have to have Mickey ears for your daughter's birthday but you're on a shoestring budget? You make them of course!

Here is what I spent:
$3 on 12 headbands 
$3 on black felt 
$6 on foam (with a ton left over that I will use on something in the future)
$2 on ribbon 
I already had hot glue, so that was free. 

I spent a total of $14 on 12 Mickey ears headbands... that wouldn't even buy me 3 online or at the local party store!! 

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Saturday, March 23, 2013

Wes's Birthday

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Big 28. 
Happy Birthday Dad! 

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Friday, March 22, 2013

Homemade LaraBars

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Have you ever had a LaraBar? The ones I've had have no more than five ingredients, some only have two or three. They have no preservatives. They're simple and delicious and amazing. They are also VERY expensive at about $2.50 per bar! Even buying a box at Costco is expensive. 

These are one of the few "ready to eat," wholesome foods that don't have soy or dairy in them -- meaning Sofia CAN eat them, but how can I bring myself to spend that much money? I can't. 

Fortunately, I came across this recipe over at a blog I love called 100 Day's of Whole Foods and OMG I'll never buy these again. I'm laughing all the way to the bank, I made these in 10 minutes and they were so cheap and easy. They taste exactly the same. 

Dates. Cashews. Peanut Butter. Period. 

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Thursday, March 21, 2013

Hold You

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About a week or so ago Sofia started saying "hold you" when she wanted to be held. 
Wes and I were so enamored by our sweet little girl (who has never ever been a cuddly baby) wanting to be held and cuddled and verbalizing her want that we did as she asked - we held her. We snuggled her and kissed her and cuddled all over her. 

Now, Knox is a very cuddly baby, but Sofia has never been. It was always hard for us because being our first baby, all we wanted to do was hold and cuddle and love on her (that's what you do with babies right?) and she would throw a fit, writhing out of our arms and wanting to be independent. We would often ask each other, "do you think she will ever let us just hold her?" So when our independent first born started asking to be held and cuddled, it was like a dream come true. 

Then it became all the time. Every second of every day for the last week or two and I started to think that I had accidentally crossed the "WARNING: TODDLER - DO NOT CROSS" line. 

Then it hit me. How absurdly unstable her life has been for the last three months. 
First, Dad was on the road for almost an entire year, we only saw him 4 days a month so I was her primary caregiver. Then Dad came home and was home 24/7. Then this little creature arrives that is consuming Mom's attention and hanging off of her body and Dad becomes primary caregiver because he is home and trying to help Mom. Then out of no where (in her mind) Dad gets a job and is suddenly gone all day and Mom is primary caregiver again. 

How confusing and frustrating. 
She has been very clingy to me lately and she has not stopped with the "hold you" and it just clicked that this has been going on for exactly the same amount of time that Wes has been back to work. 

My poor girl is dealing with emotions she doesn't understand. She wants to be held because it brings her comfort and she needs to feel the stability of being held and cared for. She doesn't want to leave my side because she doesn't know when her whole world is going to, once again, be flipped around. 

I feel so bad about this, but the fact is, this is life. Things like this happen and we as humans learn to be resilient and to overcome. So as we as a family of four seek our new normal, Sofia is having to seek her own sense of what is "normal." 

She will overcome, she is strong and independent and determined. Until then, I will continue to hold my daughter when I am able to because that is what she needs and I am her mom and sometimes we have to recognize that our children's requests are deeper rooted than just normal toddler instability and attempts at autonomy. 

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Wednesday, March 20, 2013

She Wakes Up Sassy

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Tuesday, March 19, 2013

This Brain

Pin It Picked these flash cards up at Dollar Tree the other day. They say 3+ but my little smarty pants knew every single word the first go round. Except she did think the drawing of a teddy bear was a monkey, but she followed it up with "oo oo ah ah" so I'm giving her the point! In her defense it looked a lot like a monkey and only sort of like a teddy bear. Man am I impressed with this sweet girl! Guess I'm going to have to up my game!

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Pre-School Orientation

Pin It We signed Sofia up for pre-school tonight. I've been so excited for Sofia to start school and lately I've been feeling more and more sad about it. To the point that I've almost considered holding off. We walked into the 2-year-old room tonight and I almost started crying. It's all happening too fast.

Sofia didn't even hesitate, she took off, full stride, and made that room her own. She was so excited and the whole way home she said "fun, momma, fun!!" and "fun! friends!" It was so sweet. She's ready, she's too ready. This mommas just going to have to accept that.

I had to take pictures to remember her orientation night. Isn't she precious? She's the love of our lives.

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Monday, March 18, 2013

Toddler "Ice Cube Tray" Lunch

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Toddlers love to explore. They love to touch. They love details and colors and variety. 
I've been meal planning lately to stay on budget and to encourage myself to be more creative, especially with Sofia's breakfasts and lunches. This was an idea I came across on the internet and Sofia loved it. I love that kids don't need things to be complicated to enjoy them. Something as simple as this fun idea made her day. 

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Knox is 3 Months

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Can you believe it?
I can't. 

He is 17 pounds, 25" long and he fits right in to this little family. 
We are in love with our man cub. 

He can support his body weight on his little legs already (crazy!) and hold his head up. He has found his hands and fingers and loves to grab onto things, bat at things and suck on his hands. He is very aware of his surroundings and can definitely distinguish between Mom, Dad, Sis and strangers.
He is smiling and laughing and making it so much fun for all of us to entertain him. In fact, he is encouraging some bad habits in his sister because he gives her attention for things she shouldn't be doing. For instance, she starting yelling (in fun) the other day and he started laughing at her so of course she wanted to keep up the yelling. It's hard to put your foot down in a situation when your kids are enjoying each other, but a rule is a rule right? 

Aside from that, I had planned on waiting until six months to start solids, but this little man is already showing interest in food. He loves to follow the food from my plate to my mouth and he always gets bright eyed when I eat around him. He is very curious. Either way, I have another month to decide if I want to start at 4 months or wait until 6. 

He is full of "ooohs and ahhhhs and aaa-goos" and has even begun to raz and blow bubbles. 
Ahhhh, the things we parents get excited about. 

He isn't sleeping through the night yet, every time he gets close we all get sick again so I don't blame him. At any rate, I've adjusted to getting up once a night so it's not terrible right now, I've forgotten what it is like to sleep through the night so of course that always helps. 

Sitting in the Bumbo

Bundled up to go visit Grandpa at the Ranch.

A random pacifier moment... he actually does not take a pacifier at all anymore but he wasn't feeling too good this day. 

Playing under his jungle gym.
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Saturday, March 16, 2013

Loving This Weather

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Joys of my life. 

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Thursday, March 14, 2013

Baby Steps Towards a New Normal

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Wes got a job! 
He started work on Monday. It seems like a promising company, but if I've learned anything in my life it is that only time will tell. We were really in search of a position for Wes that would allow him mobility, pay increases etc. He has never had a job that allowed this before, which in my eyes means he's never had a job that could be a career. We were in search of a career. In the past, we've found many "quick fix" jobs or "band-aid" jobs, jobs that benefited us for the moment, got us by for the moment, but we've come to a point in our lives where a band-aid just wouldn't do. 

This job could be a career. So far Wes has really liked everyone he works with, he's been taken to lunch and he's been paid for a whole day when he worked less (this to me, shows that this is a company that appreciates and respects their employees). From what we've been told, nobody leaves this company and many of the people he has met have been there over 25 years! It is a family owned company and a cash company (they don't use credit, they buy everything with cash, including new building etc) and they've been around for over 50 years. So everything looks great on paper, but whether or not this is God's plan for us only time will truly tell. 

Something amazing happened when Wes started work on Monday. I got through the day easily, happily, joyfully. I had a great time with the kids, I got a ton of stuff done and I felt "normal" for the first time in almost a year. I felt happy. 

I've felt that every day this week. It is as if order has been restored to my universe. I've felt overwhelming joy and gratitude towards my husband, I've been able to push myself to go above and beyond at home when for months I've felt constant exhaustion and anxiety and had a hard time just maintaining  the house, much less cooking and gardening and venturing out by myself. It's as if a fog has lifted for me and it is the best feeling in the world. I've been on my knees in prayer to this great God of ours, pleading for light and it seems like it has been months of anguish and suddenly in one giant swoop He put all of the pieces of my life into place. All I had to do was be patient and true. 

I see light and we are taking baby steps towards it. 

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Wednesday, March 13, 2013

$4 Piñata

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I made a piñata. It took me less than two hours, was a ton of fun and it only cost me $4.

$.99 black tissue paper
$.99 red tissue paper
$.99 black crepe paper
$.89 craft glue
FREE recycled diaper box
FREE recycled coat hanger
FREE tape (already had)

I can't wait to put it to good use at Sofia's 2nd birthday party.

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